courage

I just can't seem to write lately. I've been busy, which is good, but also processing a lot. But I have been well, surprisingly. 

Sara left Moz early because her mother was dying of cancer, and I just heard that she passed away this morning. Sara was still about four hours away when it happened, on a train headed for the open spaces of North Dakota, her home, after having come all that way. What comes to mind is: We see in part...

I believe so much in this, first given me by Michelle in late 2005, the year her father was killed in a motorcycle accident:

"Nothing can make up for the absence of someone whom we love, and it would be wrong to try and find a substitute; we must simply hold out and see it through. That sounds very hard at first, but at the same time it is a great consolation, for the gap, as long as it remains unfilled preserves the bonds between us. It is nonsense to say that God fills the gap; God doesn't fill it, but on the contrary, keeps it empty and so helps us to keep alive our former communion with each other, even at the cost of pain." 

-Dietrich Bonhoeffer

a photo Sara took in Feb '07, in Npango